She is gone? Really?

‘Cause everybody’s tryin’ to get into heaven But nobody’s dead so far but tell me dear, all so weary and scary, what do you want? Do you want to get into heaven or do you want to die? And everybody is trying to show you a way, and in all ways ways are all gone. Because you are lost in this life, just as everybody else. But they all pretend they aren’t, and that whatever they choose is the right thing. But let me tell you dear, as Sara once told Himani, there is no right or wrong way. There are just long and short ways. It is up to you which way you choose. But don’t let your head get filled with gultiness and doubts about good and evil. There is no such thing as good or evil. We will all be gone someday. And as far of death, it comes to us all, so don’t you waste time wining and wondering about the whens and the hows of death. Just enjoy the time given to you. Just make sure you kick the bucket with a smile in your face. And make sure you kick it hard, so it won’t come back. 

And there are a couple things about life and love you should know. But I’m afraid you already know them. Balance is as important as air, and just as abstract and impossible. Cause you can give them all you have, but it will never be enough. And you’ll die slowly in their cruel embrace. Cause love is about giving, but not only to others, but to yourself as well. And that’s the point, you can’t give enough to yourself, you will always want more and more. And true is that you are the best company you will ever get in this world. Misery loves company, never forget that. But the best company misery will ever get is herself. Cause no one will outshine her, cause she will not have to outshine none of them. 

And maybe solitude is the best of all options when you heart only aches for the hard work and satisfaction. But who knows for what does your heart burns. Maybe it is the love of a girl, or a boy, or an angel, or perhaps a devil I cannot tell. For the mysteries of the heart are too big for reason. And one day she will be gone,and forever will be gone all that you long and ache for. 

And you will be gone, and this love will be gone, and porcupine rain will fall. Don’t you doubt that. Just give it some time. Enjoy the time before it all ends.

- Dark Shadow!